I have actually been doing things. I am helping my sister get ready for her wedding and helping another friend look at wedding dresses for her wedding. I have also been on the hunt for my Sandman back issues again. I would like to finish that collection as soon as I can, money permitting.
I have also been working on getting all of my ducks in a row for a costume for CVG. I really wish I could talk about it but I must keep it secret keep it safe. Once I can tell people about it, I will be posting off the wall about it. I can talk about the K-9 costume because I did that one last year. I would like to re work the costume and make it more robot dog like. And then there is either the James May or Richard Hammond costume I should get working on. I think I am going to be James because of the height ratios going on with the rest of the Top Gear group. My last costume is going to be the easiest. My tropical zombie dress for the party room I am working again this year. Though this CONvergence I am co- head of the room. I am excited for this, it should be a lot of fun.
I think that's about it for now.
Have a good one!
Mo
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Devious Journal Entry
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Looking back so far. 2013 has been good and I hope to keep it going that way. But I realized I never took the time to look back at last year. 2012 you were great and horrible all at the same time.
I left people who needed to be left behind in the dark where they belong and by leaving them there I opened new space for the new people I have met. For the first time in a few years I have a solid group of people who accept me for the geek and crazy ass person I am. I have co-workers that are amazing and a joy to work with. I love the job I have but sadly it just doesn't pay the bills. I am actively looking for what people refer to a "big girl job" IE pays the bills and will get me an apartment. So add those to both lists of why 2012 ans '13 are going well. I am employed and seeking betterment for my self. 2012 also gave me a lot of artistic love, though most of it didn't end up here and a better part of it was all food I am okay with that. The movies that came out were inspiring and just wonderful to watch over and over. My sister got engaged and I will be her maid of honor. I am very excited and happy for her. On the notion of love when it comes to me, it still eludes me and perhaps will for some time to come. I am finally okay with this. After this last fall I don't think I can imagine my self with any one. Not after the heartbreak that I had, and I shouldn't even had let it happen in the first place. I let my feelings grow to strongly too fast and it was a mistake on my part and I know it now. But from this I have learned that I need to be more cautious and not fall in freaking love. It happened to my mom and dad and now my sister it looks like it doesn't work with me though. Oh well. Onward and up ward to the things to look forward to this year.
A new job is possible, which is always good. For the first time I am going to be part of a very well planned out costuming group for CONvergence. I can't say much about it but it is going to be amazing. I have all ready been cooking and baking more new things that I was not confidant in. I have a steady flow of new supplies come in so as I grow as a baker/chef I can do so seamlessly. My knowledge in wines, ciders, and beers is also growing which is good for my current job and if I proceed in to the restaurant world it will give me a leg up. My sister is getting married and that will be so much fun to help her with. And in 2014 I will be a brides maid in a friends wedding so that shall be a lot of fun as well.
Really looking back at things I have been so fortunate in my life. I have not lost and of those who are closest to me. I have gained new friends and I have only had one unfortunate run in with love and that is okay. 2012 was a good year and 2013 is shaping up to be a good one as well.
Thank you to every one who has been there for me and will continue to be there for me. I will do every thing in my power to be there for you even if it is only with words over the phone or internet.
Stay well stay safe and love every one around you no matter who they are or what they've done.
I left people who needed to be left behind in the dark where they belong and by leaving them there I opened new space for the new people I have met. For the first time in a few years I have a solid group of people who accept me for the geek and crazy ass person I am. I have co-workers that are amazing and a joy to work with. I love the job I have but sadly it just doesn't pay the bills. I am actively looking for what people refer to a "big girl job" IE pays the bills and will get me an apartment. So add those to both lists of why 2012 ans '13 are going well. I am employed and seeking betterment for my self. 2012 also gave me a lot of artistic love, though most of it didn't end up here and a better part of it was all food I am okay with that. The movies that came out were inspiring and just wonderful to watch over and over. My sister got engaged and I will be her maid of honor. I am very excited and happy for her. On the notion of love when it comes to me, it still eludes me and perhaps will for some time to come. I am finally okay with this. After this last fall I don't think I can imagine my self with any one. Not after the heartbreak that I had, and I shouldn't even had let it happen in the first place. I let my feelings grow to strongly too fast and it was a mistake on my part and I know it now. But from this I have learned that I need to be more cautious and not fall in freaking love. It happened to my mom and dad and now my sister it looks like it doesn't work with me though. Oh well. Onward and up ward to the things to look forward to this year.
A new job is possible, which is always good. For the first time I am going to be part of a very well planned out costuming group for CONvergence. I can't say much about it but it is going to be amazing. I have all ready been cooking and baking more new things that I was not confidant in. I have a steady flow of new supplies come in so as I grow as a baker/chef I can do so seamlessly. My knowledge in wines, ciders, and beers is also growing which is good for my current job and if I proceed in to the restaurant world it will give me a leg up. My sister is getting married and that will be so much fun to help her with. And in 2014 I will be a brides maid in a friends wedding so that shall be a lot of fun as well.
Really looking back at things I have been so fortunate in my life. I have not lost and of those who are closest to me. I have gained new friends and I have only had one unfortunate run in with love and that is okay. 2012 was a good year and 2013 is shaping up to be a good one as well.
Thank you to every one who has been there for me and will continue to be there for me. I will do every thing in my power to be there for you even if it is only with words over the phone or internet.
Stay well stay safe and love every one around you no matter who they are or what they've done.
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Hobbit!!!
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I saw it last Wednesday/Thursday night/morning. IT WAS AWESOME! And can I just say WOW about Thorin Fili and Kili! Just WOW! Beautiful
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And the other shoe drops
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And every thing came tumbling down. For the first time in my life I have felt heartbreak and it is less then pleasant. And I know things will get better but right now I want nothing more to do then crawl into bed and stay there. I have never felt this horrible about my self. EVER. And I have never felt this betrayed not only by the person who did this but by my heart for letting me fall in love with some one so quickly. I can say this with complete honesty. I love that person and I still do and they don't feel the same way and it will never be the same between us ever again. We may be friends again in future but not the near future. I need time to heal and clear my thoughts. I need to focus on the fact that I am a wonderful person, I am beautiful in my own right and that I am worthy of some ones love but before even that I need to realize that I love myself and right now I don't. Thankfully I have very good friends and a loving family and I know they will be there for me. I am lucky and I am really starting to see that. But even all the encouraging words they have for me, all the banter, all the hugs and smiles won't be enough right now. Eventually they will be my saving grace they always are when things start to get hairy.
So in advance I want to thank every one for the support and love. It means the world to me and I would be less of a person if I didn't have every single one of you. Even if we aren't the best of friends or we are just friends over the internet you are amazing and wonderful and thank you.
And in light of all of this it has helped focus on the things that help me get through tough times. Drawing and baking are two things that help me release feelings in a positive ways with out hurting my self or others. Because let's face it if you know me in real life I can start to get really negative and take it out on others. In other words I become a big bitch and that isn't fun. So when I am not at work I will try to draw more and focus on the things I need to change to my style and focus on posing and line work. I have come a long what from when I joined and I hope to keep progressing because that is all you can do from becoming stagnant. Keep drawing so I can keep growing.
Writing this has also been helpful some of the tension in my chest is releasing and it is wonderful. I just have to keep a positive state of mind or at least make an effort to do so and that will help me.
So again thank you all for every thing you have done are doing and will do. You are amazing and wonderful.
Love,
Maureen
So in advance I want to thank every one for the support and love. It means the world to me and I would be less of a person if I didn't have every single one of you. Even if we aren't the best of friends or we are just friends over the internet you are amazing and wonderful and thank you.
And in light of all of this it has helped focus on the things that help me get through tough times. Drawing and baking are two things that help me release feelings in a positive ways with out hurting my self or others. Because let's face it if you know me in real life I can start to get really negative and take it out on others. In other words I become a big bitch and that isn't fun. So when I am not at work I will try to draw more and focus on the things I need to change to my style and focus on posing and line work. I have come a long what from when I joined and I hope to keep progressing because that is all you can do from becoming stagnant. Keep drawing so I can keep growing.
Writing this has also been helpful some of the tension in my chest is releasing and it is wonderful. I just have to keep a positive state of mind or at least make an effort to do so and that will help me.
So again thank you all for every thing you have done are doing and will do. You are amazing and wonderful.
Love,
Maureen
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Tired worn out and done.
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My emotions are done. I need a few days to just turn off. After that I should be fine. Yeah just peachy.... Hopefully. Yup...
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